February 2012
4 posts
Watch
January 2012
9 posts
Currently mildly envious and jealous.
I taught you everything you know, god damn.
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this is better.
Entitlement
You plunged your fingers into my heart and squeezed viciously, waiting to see if you could injure me. I didn’t let on, though you should have known. You should have known all the times I said it was OK, that it was casual, we could share. We talked about the alternating weekends and laughed heartily. I told you I might love him.
You should have known all the times I said it wasn’t OK...
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casual sex...
I should also tone that down in 2012
December 2011
9 posts
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New Year's Resolution: Quit Marijuana
Why do I smoke weed?
to feel good
to have fun
to eat
to sleep
Why do I want to quit?
I feel numb
I don’t know what fun is anymore
I no longer enjoy food sober
I need to smoke to fall asleep
Abstaining for at least 6 weeks, starting Jan. 3 2011. I don’t want to be that dependent on anything.
It's not fair, it's not fair
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“All we can do is keep breathing now.”
– Ingrid Michaelson
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I understand
I heard them with my left cheek
plastered
comfortably sunken
in the worn
lime yoga mat
long hums embedded
among the drawn-out sighs
of tired souls soaked
in sweat and sweet surrender
so in unison with the bittersweet
trills of Imogen Heap
I almost thought you were singing.
I heard them with our limbs
strewn apart
almost touching but not
energy emanating off them
like the steamed buns sold
on the...
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something lost
They made me feel
like a person
dipped in foreign gems
held me over until lunch
when I could dive in
devour the sunlight and depth
and tenderness that spoke
said I’m vulnerable
but that’s OK
captured in chocolate pools
to your soul
They smiled and sung
You are my favorite person
I stared
We didn’t need dialogue
to understand
now the smile stretched across
your face
does not quite reach
They are...
November 2011
19 posts
HOW DO I DO ANYTHING?
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regards toward tonight:
I’m so confused but happy but a little sad.
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Trippple Nippple - LSD
staticdistort asked: I was just creeping on your page, and I want to tell you: Your writing is breathtaking/amazing! :)
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11/5/2011
We leave them together alone on the small trampoline — eyes free to ogle, fingers and mouths no longer idle. We lean against the balcony, embracing the whips of the fall wind, cheeks and lips raw and warm. Glaces meet and scatter. I focus on Miami, eighteen stories below. Bodies drunk on $2 shots and neon lights meander to their destinations, momentarily disconnected from the troubles of...
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People keep telling me to join gsa but like why?...
The name is misleading. GSA welcomes everyone!
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Fix me
I’m immobile
Happy music isn’t working
I need a therapist probably
I need anger management
I need to cry but I can’t
I can’t breathe
October 2011
6 posts
8 tags
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why I can't concentrate:
During the summer, the longest interval I went without touching another was possibly two weeks and I was a wound-up ball of searing aches in my crotch. I’m experiencing similar withdrawal symptoms currently.
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September 2011
1 post
Masturbation is great stuff
August 2011
6 posts
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cross off "masturbate on chatroulette."